some b&w's i finally got developed.

taken during the month of october various places around dahlonega. :)

crazy week

Here are a few random scatter brained thoughts: This week has been weird. Everything seems like it's moved twice as fast. I've been to Cumming twice this week (and once more tomorrow for thanksgiving dinner), Dawsonville for work, I had thanksgiving dinner with the roomies monday night (because they all left tuesday morning to go visit their families.) I've been home alone since tuesday. I've been driving too much. And spending too much money. I've been staying up too late and sleeping in WAY too late. I was th d.d. for my friend's 21st bday last night (aka babysitter). Today when I finally woke up and got dressed and ready, I went to chelsea's house and recorded my song along with a couple hymns and chrismas songs... which was pretty fun. except for the part where i missed out on dinner. It's been getting sooo cold here lately. all the leaves are either brown and barely hanging on, or have fallen off the trees weeks ago. it's rained a couple times lately, and at night the left over water freezes onto my car. i'm going to my family's house tomorrow all day, and then i have to work Black friday from 11PM to 8AM. After that I'll probably go home and pass out for several hours. I'm supposed to work at steamers from 3-7pm that evening, but I don't see how I will even be awake for that to happen. To top it all off, I have several friends in town that I havn't had the time to see yet, and I all the moms want me to come over for thanksgiving festivities. I'm going crazy! but i'm also really thankful for how blessed I am to have so many wonderful friends who care so much about me. :) I love you all. Wishing you a most fun and delicious thanksgiving holiday until next time...

5:13am

i know what you're thinking... what's she doing awake and blogging at 5:13am? that's even pretty bad in california with the time change. well, i decided that since i got twelve hours of sleep last night, and i have to wake up at 8:30am tomorrow... or today, i figured less was more. for some reason, if i get 5 hrs of sleep, my body can't handle it... it will push it all the way to 7 or 8. but if i get 2-4 hrs of sleep i wake up feeling refreshed. i mean, i'm definitely not saying i do this on a regular basis, but i was too afraid i'd sleep through work tomorrow, and i'm working from 10-2 at eddie and 3-7 at steamers tomorrow and friday. lets see, what else. i bought yo yo ma's new holiday cd upon hearing it in zak's car. let me tell you, it's pretty fascinating. especially hearing renee fleming and chris thile's voices mesh together in harmony. it's quite good. i'm recently addicted to edgar meyer. by far one of the most amazing upright bass players i've ever heard in my life. side note, i need to get my act together and start prepairing for next semester... before it's too late.
things i need:
money, health insurance, eddie bauer jeans, new tires, a plane ticket to california, church, more prayer, a georgia drivers license, my birth certificate or a passport to get said license, and a digital camera.
things that fascinate me:
edgar meyer, bela fleck, chris thile, opera music, the fact that i never capitalize anything online, the number of friends i have that are amazing photographers, finding a new photographer on flickr that amazes me, realizing how much/little i have in common with people i've known my whole life, the desire i have to study abroad, how much i miss choir, and for that matter how much i miss being a student.

hm. i've been very introspective lately. last night, i listened to renee fleming on youtube for a good 30 minutes, and i found myself on the verge of tears just listening to her. i feel odd. i need a vacation. not that my life has been overly stressful lately.. i just need to GO somewhere. i find i'm a pretty restless person. but oddly enough, i can sit in one spot in silence for so long...

until next time...

my bridgets are numb

our house is COLD sometimes... and by sometimes i mean most times. a good example would be this evening. i was wrapped like a burrito on the chair watching tv (hook to be exact!), and jennifer was sitting on the couch looking up wedding ideas (because we're vicariously living through emily and she will have 15 wedding planners by next october). anywho, even while wrapped in a burrito of fleece, i realized my fingers and toes were still quite cold. feeling it necessary to state my turmoil, i said to jennifer, "my digits are numb." and as all former bio students know, digits are obviously referring to one's fingers and toes (aka phalanges.) jennifer, obviously confused, replied, "what? your bridgets?" of coarse at that moment, i burst into laughter, as would anyone, and after a good solid 30 seconds i cleared the waters up. "digits, as in fingers and toes." apparently that's not a commonly used term, because she had no idea what i was talking about. turns out, she thought i'd just picked a "cool name" for my boobs. haha. if i ever decided to name them... first of all, they wouldn't have the same name, and second, bridget? weak. haha.
on a side note, i'm going to actually try and be a good citizen of the state of georgia and get my drivers license this week... assuming that it doesn't cost 1 million dollars, the test's not too hard and they'll still let me since i've been here more than a month... whoops. my b.
another side note... 4 days till twilight........YESS.
mia, i wish you were here... we'll just see the movie at the same time, and call each other during the movie and just have a 2 hr. convo. it's a PLAN!
shivering until next time...

jazz and jones soda.

tonight when i got off work, i thriftily purchased a sweater, a jacket, and a fleece vest from eddie for only $32... i was pretty excited. that would have been like a regular person just buying the vest. i know... i'm good. :) i also bought a peacoat from old navy that i'm probably going to take back because emily got me the one i originally wanted from torrid. as much as i would like to keep both, because one's more practical and the other's more trendy, my bank account will not appreciate nor support that decision. i still need to buy jeans from eddie so i don't have to wear stinking khaki's to work every day. but anyway, the point is, after work i went to a jazz concert at the college with zak and clay. it was AMAZING. first it was free, second, it was a trio by the name of "The Brad Mehldau Trio." Brad played the piano, and then there was a stand up bass and drummer. It was probably some of the best jazz combo music i've heard live. Look them up. :) after that i didn't feel like going home, so i deposited my paycheck, went to walmart by myself (because all my friends are out of town at the beach without me because i had to work this weekend), and i ended up leaving walmart with $20 worth of things i didn't necessarily need. whoops. my bad. then i drove around aimlessly for a while, came home, and my roommate jennifer was submitting pictures to jones soda online while drinking a jones soda. it seemed like a good idea, so i joined in, and may i say, the prospect of having one of my own pictures on a bottle of soda is pretty thrilling. oh, and helen, adrianna, and little caroline... hope you don't mind if your face is plastered all over the world... surprise! haha. in conclusion, go to jonessoda.com, view the gallery, and find my pictures and vote for them! you never know what could happen...
until next time my dear friends...

Weird

So over then weekend when I was with Erin and Ashley in Atlanta, we decided to dance to some sweet tunes while we got ready. We started out with the classics, like Frankie and Michael Buble and then somehow, all of a sudden, we were listening to Hanson. haha. I don't know how it happened, but we clicked on their "Weird" music video on youtube, and after jamming to it twice, I noticed something. It's actually a pretty good song. Who knew. I never would have thought that three young boys could hit life on the head so well.

Isn't it weird
Isn't it strange
Even though we're just two strangers on this runaway train
We're both trying to find a place in the sun
We've lived in the shadows, but doesn't everyone
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird sometimes
Yeah, ooh
Isn't it hard, standing in the rain
Yeah you're on the verge of going crazy and your heart's in pain
No one can hear, but you're screaming so loud
You feel like you're all alone in a faceless crowd
Isn't it strange how we all get a little bit weird sometimes
Whoa, sitting on the side, waiting for a sign, hoping that my luck will change
Reaching for a hand that'll understand, someone who feels the same
When you live in a cookie cutter world, being different is a sin
So you don't stand out, but you don't fit in
Weird
Whoa, sitting on the side, waiting for a sign, hoping that my luck will change
Whoa, reaching for a hand that'll understand, someone who feels the same
When you live in a cookie cutter world, if you're different you can't win
So you don't stand out and you don't fit in
Ooh, isn't it strange
How we all feel a little bit weird
Strange, how we all get a little bit
Strange, how we all feel a little bit weird, sometimes
Oooh, just a little bit weird sometimes

Another thing I noticed was that I'd never seen that music video in my life. I quickly realized that I was a very young preteen when Hanson was in it's prime, and there was no way my parents were going to let me watch TRL to experience the video... and honestly, who did see that video? I mean, I'm fairly certain that Hanson didn't have a very large High school to college fan base, and things weren't so readily available on convenient websites such as youtube. I believe I actually have a Hanson cassette. That's pretty bad. Anyway, I just thought it was a little "weird." haha. good lord i'm corny. at least i'm laughing right?

Oh, and on a quick note... I gave bobby "the talk." Hopefully that problem won't resurface. He was a learning experience.. that's for sure.

Shamelessly humming Hanson til next time...

night in atlanta

today i went to work at eddie bauer. i was exhausted and had a horrible sinus headache... but i made money so that's all that matters. i really like working there. it's going to be a good job. i can tell... so after work, i met up with erin at the outlet mall and after making a quick stop to see joseph at the bose store, we headed to atlanta to visit ashley! we'd been promising a girls night forever but this was the first time we'd finally had a chance to go. we're staying at keith's (ashley's bf) house, so after we got here, we went out to dinner at cheesecake factory... which was amazing because i hadn't been in sooo long. erin had never been, and had pretty much never experienced a big city environment before, so she was kinda wide eyed and bushy tailed the whole time. she was completely BLOWN AWAY by the fact that the only way you could park was by valet. she said, "i feel like i need to be in a prom dress." haha. oh erin... so sheltered. after that we went to the coziest (sp?) little restaraunt that made me feel like i was in europe called cafe' intermezzo. we had some amazing coffee and desert... i think my stomach and my bank account exploded tonight. woops. girls night. :) anyway the point is, i'm having a blast, and i officially want to live in atlanta... well it's called "atlantic station"... it reminds me of california. well, atleast the up and coming urban areas. i think it's my favorite. i love the feel of living somewhere where you can walk downstairs straight on the street, go shopping, have dinner, and then walk down an alley and be in a little english garden-ish park area. they even have a arc de triompe (again.. sp?) repleca. ok, this is long, and my friends are talking, so i should stop being anti-social. there's the nightly update. it's been amazing getting my little "california injection." lets hope it holds me over...
hoping to come back soon... until next time.

bobby: with whom i'd had high hopes

sooo. i don't think things are going to work out with bobby. I've told some of you this already in previous conversations, but I went on my date with bobby last night, and I just don't think I'm feeling it. Don't get me wrong, he's a really really sweet guy. Kind of to a fault. he apologizes for things that aren't his fault, he feels a little too clingy already, and he's kind of... simple minded. plus we have absolutely nothing in common besides the fact that our favorite ice cream flavor is mint chocolate chip. i mean... at dinner he had 5 or 6 beers, he doesn't do anything besides eat, sleep, exercise, and work at the hall county jail from 7pm-7am... graveyard shift. he has two tattoos on either arm. one is BARBED WIRE and the other is a TRIBAL BAND. really? that was literally an instant turn off. he asked permission to kiss me in the movie theater full of only 3 couples including us before the scary movie i'd picked even started... so cliche'. i politely declined. i feel guilty, but at the same time, i don't regret the decision. if that makes sense. the way i see it, if i've waited this long for my first kiss, i should want to kiss he guy back... not just kiss him so i will have been kissed before. what's the value in that? i probably have my standards set too high, but i'd like to save myself unnecessary heartache and or trouble by avoiding this situation. i don't see bobby and i going anywhere in the future, so i would be kissing him solely to kiss. period. that's not good enough for me. if my standards are too high, then so be it. i'll just be waiting a while longer. since i havn't experienced it before, i don't know what i'm missing... so it's a lot easier to go without. haha. so yeah, this past week of talking to bobby has taught me a lot. i may not have gotten my first kiss, but i have had a first and second date, i've been actively and sort of aggressively pursued by a guy so now i know what to expect, and if nothing else, i got a really nice confidence boost. bobby's a sweet guy, but he's not the guy for me.
p.s. the indians lost their final football game of the season 35-17. they put up a good fight, but had a lot going against them. i'm so proud of my surrogate brothers... i almost cried watching them cry as they left the stadium for the last time. thankfully the night ended on a happy note. everyone went straight to mcdonalds and stayed until they kicked us out. :) oh, and tomorrow i'm working at eddie bauer for the second time (i'm excited) and then going to atlanta with erin for a girls night with ashley at georgia tech! she's come to visit us so many times in dahlonega, so we definitely owed her a trip. plus i've never been to atlanta by myself as a college student. it should be fun. don't worry, i won't get crazy. :)
until next time friends...

picnik fun...

my sister told me about this website, www.picnik.com. it's so fun. cha cha cha cha cha cha check it out. fun at burt's pumpkin farm with the roomies.

about a boy

Bobby: a sweet southern boy who came into Steamers two weeks ago and bought a coffee from me. who came back into steamers on friday (halloween) to ask for my number. Bobby, who continued to text me all halloween night while I was at a party, and called me saturday the second i got off work to take me out to dinner. Bobby, who 30 minutes after dinner called to say what a good time he had and how pretty I looked and wanted to go to church with me the next day but decided not to because I was apprehensive. Bobby, who called me twice sunday when it turned out I was sick to make sure I was ok. Bobby, who asked me today if I could ever go for a guy like him, because he thought I was amazing and although we hardly know eachother, is willing to let me take my time and see if I want to date him... because he wants to date me.

Zak who?

It's so refreshing to have a guy actually pursue you. To instantly be attracted to you and not be afraid to do something about it. Maybe it's the fact that he's 22. I mean, it's not a huge age difference, but he's got his act together. He's sweet, polite, kind, and hardworking... and he definitely deserves a shot. I'll let you know how it goes. We're going to dinner and a movie after I get off work Thursday.

p.s. I'm not a big fan of either candidate, but no matter who you voted for, the president has been selected, and as American citizens we have to respect our political leaders and unite as one country. We still have soldiers fighting two wars for us right now, and they need our support. Respect democracy and act like you love your country please. Thank you.