lots and lots of crafting

crafting: what one does when one's bank account doesn't supply funds for Christmas gifts.
that's the definition... check websters... scouts honor! haha.

so i've been feeling pretty crafty lately. and not in the sneaky sense. jennifer and i went to starbucks recently (a rarity when living in dahlonega), and we saw the world's cutest wreath.
we thought it was so cute that we decided to make our own interpretation. so, after 4 trips to walmart for styrofoam balls, a wreath base, green yarn, and red sparkly ornaments we created this.somehow, ours ended up more substantial. probably because we were working from a base and not attaching them to eachother. also, we only had one size of ornament, which didn't help. needless to say, we love it... but now we have to figure out who gets to keep it...

last week, i also did erin's hair for a wedding she was in. she was just going to hot roll it, but at the last minute, the other brides maids said they were having theirs put up.. so she frantically called me and asked me to do it the next morning. she came over that night, i played around, and ended up with this. these are pics from the practice round, but it looked pretty similar... just more polished. oh, and the funny thing was.. when she got to the wedding, everyone's hair was down. haha. atleast her's looked the best. ;)i was pretty happy with the end result. :)
other things i've been making... several scarves. i'm on number 4, and i've decided it's for myself, because i've never made on just for me. plus i'm also in love with this particular yarn. i've also been painting and making some top secret christmas presents for my roommate's christmas exchange... it's tomorrow... i'm not going to finish in time. oops. haha. here's the painting i did for jennifer.
she was in the room while i was doing it, but i saw the one she made for me the night before, so we're even. we were watching mona lisa smile and feeling very inspired. :) also, it's supposed to be crooked. haha.

let see, what else. i'm making something for erin. and right now i'm actually working on hand made christmas cards for friends and family. they're a tad time consuming, so i won't be able to give them to everyone, but every little bit saved helps right?

well, that's about it for my craft update right now. i'm going to try and get some sleep. much to accomplish tomorrow... too much.

the little things

I'm missing the little things. well, and the big things, like my family and friends... but every day, something little hits me. Like the fact that it's weird for me to see pictures of the new kids in Concert Choir, VSB, barbershop and beauty shop, etc. It's weird to see MY friends in pictures with people I havn't met... and they look happy, which makes me sad. It shouldn't, but somewhere deep down, it does. I think it's because everyone's moving on but me. I came back to the same old people, but everyone else is moving forward, and now not everyone in choir knows my name, or at least my face. And it's not just choir. I think I'm having a harder time than I realized with the fact that I wasn't in school this semester. I accomplished nothing while everyone else around me was busy working towards graduation. All my friends will be second semester Juniors, but with the semester I missed, and the classes that didn't transfer, I'll be a second semester sophomore.... a whole year behind. I'll graduate in 2011 instead of 2010. I thought that didn't bother me anymore, but I guess it still does. I miss the comfort of passing a exorbitant amount of Starbucks in 5 miles down the same road. I miss the ocean and newport church. I miss living on campus. I miss driving through 3 cities in 10 minutes. I miss funky places to hang out like the Gypsy Den. I miss silly photo shoots at the park and stealing bread from the caf to feed the ducks. I miss Office parties in Carly's room. I miss seeing a krochet kids shirt or hat on every other person. I miss trendy slouch boots, skinny jeans, v-necks, scarves, and slouchy beanies... even if I didn't wear them. I miss my digital camera. I miss singing. I miss worshiping. I miss seeing my friends lead worship. I feel like I'm floating, and like everyone else is moving along in a straight line. I'm so proud of all my friends who are RA's, worship leaders, members of VSB, members of dboys and entourage, frontline leaders, etc. They're all accomplishing their goals and achieving their dreams. But what am I doing? Staying up till 5am writing this sad blog? I'm sorry this is so cumbersome and depressing. I'm not depressed... I'm happy I'm here, I'm just in a slump. I feel kind of unmotivated, and I guess I'm second guessing myself. I worry so much about the future and how my actions affect the outcome of my life. I really just need to put it all in God's hands and trust that he's taking care of me. It's just so hard to do when you have no idea what lies ahead...
I can't go back for Christmas...
time to grow up Kristen.
until next time...

SNOW day

ok, ok. so it wasn't a snow day, but it did snow today... all day! nothing stuck to the ground, but they were predicting that it would ice over tonight, and i think it's a sign that the first snow of the season happened on december 1st. i'm so excited for christmas. actually, i think i'm just excited to be here for christmas. the square is so beautiful this time of year. i would put a picture up, but i still don't have a digital camera here. i've taken pictures on my phone, but i don't know how to get them onto my computer. if anyone wants to help me out there... i don't have a memory card in my phone or a iphone nor do i pay for the internet on my phone. any great ideas? although, i do miss my family and my friends in california and west virginia a lot. i'm starting to get prepared for next semester, and i'm hoping all my loans will go through in time.. and for that matter i'm praying that i'll have enough loans to make it through the semester! another thing i REALLY have to get done is get my georgia license. i don't know WHY it's taken me this long, but i really need to take care of that pronto. somethings i have been doing instead of getting my license are working, babysitting, staying up all night crafting, and watching movies with my roommates. i think i've officially seen almost every movie in our house. which is sad... we have a large collection. one craft in particular that i'm very proud of is my christmas stocking. i made it my hand from scratch, and didn't use a single stencil or template. it took about 4 hrs... because i'm an ocd perfectionist.. but none the less, it was quite enjoyable. i've also been crocheting a lot again, which i always thoroughly enjoy. christmas presents and such. oh christmas. my half birthday... sort of. it's actually jan. 25th, but my birthday's christmas in july, so i like to claim christmas as my 1/2 bday. shout out to the 25 club... me, molly, drew, josh, and jesus.
wishing for snow until next time...

some b&w's i finally got developed.

taken during the month of october various places around dahlonega. :)

crazy week

Here are a few random scatter brained thoughts: This week has been weird. Everything seems like it's moved twice as fast. I've been to Cumming twice this week (and once more tomorrow for thanksgiving dinner), Dawsonville for work, I had thanksgiving dinner with the roomies monday night (because they all left tuesday morning to go visit their families.) I've been home alone since tuesday. I've been driving too much. And spending too much money. I've been staying up too late and sleeping in WAY too late. I was th d.d. for my friend's 21st bday last night (aka babysitter). Today when I finally woke up and got dressed and ready, I went to chelsea's house and recorded my song along with a couple hymns and chrismas songs... which was pretty fun. except for the part where i missed out on dinner. It's been getting sooo cold here lately. all the leaves are either brown and barely hanging on, or have fallen off the trees weeks ago. it's rained a couple times lately, and at night the left over water freezes onto my car. i'm going to my family's house tomorrow all day, and then i have to work Black friday from 11PM to 8AM. After that I'll probably go home and pass out for several hours. I'm supposed to work at steamers from 3-7pm that evening, but I don't see how I will even be awake for that to happen. To top it all off, I have several friends in town that I havn't had the time to see yet, and I all the moms want me to come over for thanksgiving festivities. I'm going crazy! but i'm also really thankful for how blessed I am to have so many wonderful friends who care so much about me. :) I love you all. Wishing you a most fun and delicious thanksgiving holiday until next time...

5:13am

i know what you're thinking... what's she doing awake and blogging at 5:13am? that's even pretty bad in california with the time change. well, i decided that since i got twelve hours of sleep last night, and i have to wake up at 8:30am tomorrow... or today, i figured less was more. for some reason, if i get 5 hrs of sleep, my body can't handle it... it will push it all the way to 7 or 8. but if i get 2-4 hrs of sleep i wake up feeling refreshed. i mean, i'm definitely not saying i do this on a regular basis, but i was too afraid i'd sleep through work tomorrow, and i'm working from 10-2 at eddie and 3-7 at steamers tomorrow and friday. lets see, what else. i bought yo yo ma's new holiday cd upon hearing it in zak's car. let me tell you, it's pretty fascinating. especially hearing renee fleming and chris thile's voices mesh together in harmony. it's quite good. i'm recently addicted to edgar meyer. by far one of the most amazing upright bass players i've ever heard in my life. side note, i need to get my act together and start prepairing for next semester... before it's too late.
things i need:
money, health insurance, eddie bauer jeans, new tires, a plane ticket to california, church, more prayer, a georgia drivers license, my birth certificate or a passport to get said license, and a digital camera.
things that fascinate me:
edgar meyer, bela fleck, chris thile, opera music, the fact that i never capitalize anything online, the number of friends i have that are amazing photographers, finding a new photographer on flickr that amazes me, realizing how much/little i have in common with people i've known my whole life, the desire i have to study abroad, how much i miss choir, and for that matter how much i miss being a student.

hm. i've been very introspective lately. last night, i listened to renee fleming on youtube for a good 30 minutes, and i found myself on the verge of tears just listening to her. i feel odd. i need a vacation. not that my life has been overly stressful lately.. i just need to GO somewhere. i find i'm a pretty restless person. but oddly enough, i can sit in one spot in silence for so long...

until next time...

my bridgets are numb

our house is COLD sometimes... and by sometimes i mean most times. a good example would be this evening. i was wrapped like a burrito on the chair watching tv (hook to be exact!), and jennifer was sitting on the couch looking up wedding ideas (because we're vicariously living through emily and she will have 15 wedding planners by next october). anywho, even while wrapped in a burrito of fleece, i realized my fingers and toes were still quite cold. feeling it necessary to state my turmoil, i said to jennifer, "my digits are numb." and as all former bio students know, digits are obviously referring to one's fingers and toes (aka phalanges.) jennifer, obviously confused, replied, "what? your bridgets?" of coarse at that moment, i burst into laughter, as would anyone, and after a good solid 30 seconds i cleared the waters up. "digits, as in fingers and toes." apparently that's not a commonly used term, because she had no idea what i was talking about. turns out, she thought i'd just picked a "cool name" for my boobs. haha. if i ever decided to name them... first of all, they wouldn't have the same name, and second, bridget? weak. haha.
on a side note, i'm going to actually try and be a good citizen of the state of georgia and get my drivers license this week... assuming that it doesn't cost 1 million dollars, the test's not too hard and they'll still let me since i've been here more than a month... whoops. my b.
another side note... 4 days till twilight........YESS.
mia, i wish you were here... we'll just see the movie at the same time, and call each other during the movie and just have a 2 hr. convo. it's a PLAN!
shivering until next time...

jazz and jones soda.

tonight when i got off work, i thriftily purchased a sweater, a jacket, and a fleece vest from eddie for only $32... i was pretty excited. that would have been like a regular person just buying the vest. i know... i'm good. :) i also bought a peacoat from old navy that i'm probably going to take back because emily got me the one i originally wanted from torrid. as much as i would like to keep both, because one's more practical and the other's more trendy, my bank account will not appreciate nor support that decision. i still need to buy jeans from eddie so i don't have to wear stinking khaki's to work every day. but anyway, the point is, after work i went to a jazz concert at the college with zak and clay. it was AMAZING. first it was free, second, it was a trio by the name of "The Brad Mehldau Trio." Brad played the piano, and then there was a stand up bass and drummer. It was probably some of the best jazz combo music i've heard live. Look them up. :) after that i didn't feel like going home, so i deposited my paycheck, went to walmart by myself (because all my friends are out of town at the beach without me because i had to work this weekend), and i ended up leaving walmart with $20 worth of things i didn't necessarily need. whoops. my bad. then i drove around aimlessly for a while, came home, and my roommate jennifer was submitting pictures to jones soda online while drinking a jones soda. it seemed like a good idea, so i joined in, and may i say, the prospect of having one of my own pictures on a bottle of soda is pretty thrilling. oh, and helen, adrianna, and little caroline... hope you don't mind if your face is plastered all over the world... surprise! haha. in conclusion, go to jonessoda.com, view the gallery, and find my pictures and vote for them! you never know what could happen...
until next time my dear friends...

Weird

So over then weekend when I was with Erin and Ashley in Atlanta, we decided to dance to some sweet tunes while we got ready. We started out with the classics, like Frankie and Michael Buble and then somehow, all of a sudden, we were listening to Hanson. haha. I don't know how it happened, but we clicked on their "Weird" music video on youtube, and after jamming to it twice, I noticed something. It's actually a pretty good song. Who knew. I never would have thought that three young boys could hit life on the head so well.

Isn't it weird
Isn't it strange
Even though we're just two strangers on this runaway train
We're both trying to find a place in the sun
We've lived in the shadows, but doesn't everyone
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird sometimes
Yeah, ooh
Isn't it hard, standing in the rain
Yeah you're on the verge of going crazy and your heart's in pain
No one can hear, but you're screaming so loud
You feel like you're all alone in a faceless crowd
Isn't it strange how we all get a little bit weird sometimes
Whoa, sitting on the side, waiting for a sign, hoping that my luck will change
Reaching for a hand that'll understand, someone who feels the same
When you live in a cookie cutter world, being different is a sin
So you don't stand out, but you don't fit in
Weird
Whoa, sitting on the side, waiting for a sign, hoping that my luck will change
Whoa, reaching for a hand that'll understand, someone who feels the same
When you live in a cookie cutter world, if you're different you can't win
So you don't stand out and you don't fit in
Ooh, isn't it strange
How we all feel a little bit weird
Strange, how we all get a little bit
Strange, how we all feel a little bit weird, sometimes
Oooh, just a little bit weird sometimes

Another thing I noticed was that I'd never seen that music video in my life. I quickly realized that I was a very young preteen when Hanson was in it's prime, and there was no way my parents were going to let me watch TRL to experience the video... and honestly, who did see that video? I mean, I'm fairly certain that Hanson didn't have a very large High school to college fan base, and things weren't so readily available on convenient websites such as youtube. I believe I actually have a Hanson cassette. That's pretty bad. Anyway, I just thought it was a little "weird." haha. good lord i'm corny. at least i'm laughing right?

Oh, and on a quick note... I gave bobby "the talk." Hopefully that problem won't resurface. He was a learning experience.. that's for sure.

Shamelessly humming Hanson til next time...

night in atlanta

today i went to work at eddie bauer. i was exhausted and had a horrible sinus headache... but i made money so that's all that matters. i really like working there. it's going to be a good job. i can tell... so after work, i met up with erin at the outlet mall and after making a quick stop to see joseph at the bose store, we headed to atlanta to visit ashley! we'd been promising a girls night forever but this was the first time we'd finally had a chance to go. we're staying at keith's (ashley's bf) house, so after we got here, we went out to dinner at cheesecake factory... which was amazing because i hadn't been in sooo long. erin had never been, and had pretty much never experienced a big city environment before, so she was kinda wide eyed and bushy tailed the whole time. she was completely BLOWN AWAY by the fact that the only way you could park was by valet. she said, "i feel like i need to be in a prom dress." haha. oh erin... so sheltered. after that we went to the coziest (sp?) little restaraunt that made me feel like i was in europe called cafe' intermezzo. we had some amazing coffee and desert... i think my stomach and my bank account exploded tonight. woops. girls night. :) anyway the point is, i'm having a blast, and i officially want to live in atlanta... well it's called "atlantic station"... it reminds me of california. well, atleast the up and coming urban areas. i think it's my favorite. i love the feel of living somewhere where you can walk downstairs straight on the street, go shopping, have dinner, and then walk down an alley and be in a little english garden-ish park area. they even have a arc de triompe (again.. sp?) repleca. ok, this is long, and my friends are talking, so i should stop being anti-social. there's the nightly update. it's been amazing getting my little "california injection." lets hope it holds me over...
hoping to come back soon... until next time.

bobby: with whom i'd had high hopes

sooo. i don't think things are going to work out with bobby. I've told some of you this already in previous conversations, but I went on my date with bobby last night, and I just don't think I'm feeling it. Don't get me wrong, he's a really really sweet guy. Kind of to a fault. he apologizes for things that aren't his fault, he feels a little too clingy already, and he's kind of... simple minded. plus we have absolutely nothing in common besides the fact that our favorite ice cream flavor is mint chocolate chip. i mean... at dinner he had 5 or 6 beers, he doesn't do anything besides eat, sleep, exercise, and work at the hall county jail from 7pm-7am... graveyard shift. he has two tattoos on either arm. one is BARBED WIRE and the other is a TRIBAL BAND. really? that was literally an instant turn off. he asked permission to kiss me in the movie theater full of only 3 couples including us before the scary movie i'd picked even started... so cliche'. i politely declined. i feel guilty, but at the same time, i don't regret the decision. if that makes sense. the way i see it, if i've waited this long for my first kiss, i should want to kiss he guy back... not just kiss him so i will have been kissed before. what's the value in that? i probably have my standards set too high, but i'd like to save myself unnecessary heartache and or trouble by avoiding this situation. i don't see bobby and i going anywhere in the future, so i would be kissing him solely to kiss. period. that's not good enough for me. if my standards are too high, then so be it. i'll just be waiting a while longer. since i havn't experienced it before, i don't know what i'm missing... so it's a lot easier to go without. haha. so yeah, this past week of talking to bobby has taught me a lot. i may not have gotten my first kiss, but i have had a first and second date, i've been actively and sort of aggressively pursued by a guy so now i know what to expect, and if nothing else, i got a really nice confidence boost. bobby's a sweet guy, but he's not the guy for me.
p.s. the indians lost their final football game of the season 35-17. they put up a good fight, but had a lot going against them. i'm so proud of my surrogate brothers... i almost cried watching them cry as they left the stadium for the last time. thankfully the night ended on a happy note. everyone went straight to mcdonalds and stayed until they kicked us out. :) oh, and tomorrow i'm working at eddie bauer for the second time (i'm excited) and then going to atlanta with erin for a girls night with ashley at georgia tech! she's come to visit us so many times in dahlonega, so we definitely owed her a trip. plus i've never been to atlanta by myself as a college student. it should be fun. don't worry, i won't get crazy. :)
until next time friends...

picnik fun...

my sister told me about this website, www.picnik.com. it's so fun. cha cha cha cha cha cha check it out. fun at burt's pumpkin farm with the roomies.

about a boy

Bobby: a sweet southern boy who came into Steamers two weeks ago and bought a coffee from me. who came back into steamers on friday (halloween) to ask for my number. Bobby, who continued to text me all halloween night while I was at a party, and called me saturday the second i got off work to take me out to dinner. Bobby, who 30 minutes after dinner called to say what a good time he had and how pretty I looked and wanted to go to church with me the next day but decided not to because I was apprehensive. Bobby, who called me twice sunday when it turned out I was sick to make sure I was ok. Bobby, who asked me today if I could ever go for a guy like him, because he thought I was amazing and although we hardly know eachother, is willing to let me take my time and see if I want to date him... because he wants to date me.

Zak who?

It's so refreshing to have a guy actually pursue you. To instantly be attracted to you and not be afraid to do something about it. Maybe it's the fact that he's 22. I mean, it's not a huge age difference, but he's got his act together. He's sweet, polite, kind, and hardworking... and he definitely deserves a shot. I'll let you know how it goes. We're going to dinner and a movie after I get off work Thursday.

p.s. I'm not a big fan of either candidate, but no matter who you voted for, the president has been selected, and as American citizens we have to respect our political leaders and unite as one country. We still have soldiers fighting two wars for us right now, and they need our support. Respect democracy and act like you love your country please. Thank you.

what am i doing

with my life these days? not a whole lot. yesterday, i didn't leave the house all day. it was kinda nice, but kinda not at the same time. i only work thursday and friday nights. i did have a job at gymboree, but i worked there for two days and hated it so bad that i quit... but i thought i was going to hear back from eddie bauer before now. sadly, i was mistaken. i still havn't heard anything from eddie, and i could have been suffering/making money at gymboree this whole week. because of that, i'm short on money. so that limits the number of things i can do... like go to my friend's 21st bday party tomorrow night in athens. everything i'm writing right now is really random, because i've been so distracted that i've had this window open for about an hour. haha. in other news... i think i've been living vicariously through movies and books lately. i should start doing things for me. also, i'm going to exercise more. i'm tired of looking like this. and i really need to start calling my family more. i havn't talked to anyone but my immediate family in a month or so... and i don't even talk to my immediate family as much as i probably should. i just get so wrapped up in living here. i need to have more perspective and look at the big picture more often. lastly, i still havn't talked to him. i put myself out there, and he asked me to wait until he had time to talk... but i'm starting to think that i'm going to have to be the first to say something again. i hate this. as jennifer said today while watching Sleeping Beauty, "you know, it would be nice to just get the fairy tale..."
until next time friend...

wow weekend...

Micah's homecoming king, and the girl we wanted to win won.
The football team won the homecoming game in the last 7 seconds by one point.
My roommates had a party that I didn't partake in, but experienced.
Zak, Patrick, and their friend played on the square during Gold Rush.
Oh yeah, and Gold Rush blocked off half the town.
I worked at Gymboree.
Then I quit Gymboree.
Then my friends got mad at me for quitting.
I stayed up making halloween crafts with chelsea.
I missed church for the um-teenth time.
I went to Gold Rush/hung out at Zak's house.
Picked out a cute mint green pumpkin at Burt's Pumpkin Farm.
Took lots of pictures.
And finally ate dinner with friends in Dawsonville.
oh, and I have a job interview at Eddie Bauer tomorrow. Please Pray.
Craazy weekend. crazy good, and crazy bad.
Crazy none the less.

AND I did the one thing I never thought I would do... I wrote him a letter... just now.

shaking violently until next time...

Gymboree

I got a job at Gymboree the other day... hooray! I'm working 32 hrs next week. I'm pretty excited about it. I havn't been keeping up with my blog lately. Whoops. I guess there hasn't been a whole lot going on here lately, and by the time I think about this, I'm about ready to pass out. As we speak, I'm finishing posting some pictures that I've been editing while watching the Presidential Debate tonight. I'll put one or two up for you in a second. Speaking of the Presidential Debate... is there any other candidate that would like to stand up and run real quick? Honestly, I don't really want Obama OR McCain to be the next president, but if I'm forced to chose, I like Obama a whole lot less. McCain isn't my favorite Republican, but I feel like Obama is making empty promises left and right... and I know for a fact that socializing health care is going to be bad. The weird thing to me is that so many people in Hollywood are supporting Obama. Don't they realize that they're going to have the crap taxed out of them? I'm pretty sure movie stars make more than 200,000 a year. Just a guess. Anywho, this weekend and next week are going to be pretty crazy for me. I'm excited. :) Friday is the Homecoming Football game (Micah's on the court, and will hopefully have his boot off in time to play.) Saturday and Sunday are Gold Rush. Sat Zak's playing at 3pm, and then I'm finishing my training at Gymboree. Sunday hopefully I'll have more time at G.R. and then work again. All next week is work work work. Wednesday's my only day off. Lets hope I find something good to do. Here's some of my favorite pics.





Reeling until next time...

lucky

When I think about my life, I have to acknowledge the fact that I've been extremely lucky. Even though I've moved all over the place, I've still maintained life long friendships and made many new ones. Even though my family's never had an exorbitant amount of money, they always found a way to put presents under the tree and allow us to live more comfortably than some. Even though I made a D in math my senior year and never finished my foreign language requirement (which would have permitted me from going to a california state school), I was blessed with the opportunity to go to a private Christian university for 1 1/2 years. Even though I've never been in a relationship, I've been lucky enough to never have had my heart broken. Even though several people close to me have died, I've never lost a direct member of my family. The list goes on and on. I know so many people who have experienced pain that I might not ever know, and I feel so blessed by that fact... but it also makes me feel guilty that I don't do more with my time. Since I moved back to Georgia, I've accomplished very little. Perhaps it's the fact that I'm not in school right now, and I didn't have my car here for a month, but there's still so much more I could do. I'm very picky about where I work, and I could probably be working at Wal-Mart right now, but instead, I'm still looking for one that's "good enough" for me. There's something very wrong with that point of view. Thankfully, I had a job interview today, and I have two more later this week... so hopefully I'll be back to being happily busy soon. It will be good for me to get back on a normal schedule. These days I've become pretty nocturnal. The other thing that's made me so uneasy is a guy. I've known him for half of my life, and I didn't appreciate him before... but now, I'm being payed back by feeling restless all the time. I've had him on such a high pedestal for so long, that it's impossible not to like him since I see him so often. We have so much in common, and I feel like we could talk for hours. I love being the cause of the smile on his face, and I love when his music brings a smile to mine. If only I could get the nerve up to see where he stands.
Restless until next time...

dinner and a movie

So today was a pretty low key day. I slept through church, because i've been getting sick lately, and i needed to sleep in... then i watched tv, sat around, and did the dishes. my roommates showed up right about the time that i got a phone call from erin to hang out... oh, and today was my dad's 55th birthday, and i TOTALLY forgot about it until my mom called. oops. i was able to recover by calling and singing happy birthday and saying my card "wasn't in the mail yet." haha. sorry fahj. 

Dinner was good. I hadn't been to Ruby Tuesday's in forever, and it was fun to eat with Lindsay and Erin. We also had a hot waiter named "Van", and he basically answered our every becon. haha. Erin, who doesn't know how to talk to guys without flirting, sure buttered him up as well. We went to see Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist, and I really liked it alot. Michael Cera is so loveably awkward. haha. 

I love music. It gives me hope, fills me with joy, and makes me sing!

Movies who are about people who fall in love through music give me hope...

until next time...

girl night

no, not girlS night. just me. sitting on my couch in my cold house watching t.v. well, i started watching tv, but then the notebook was on, and obviously you can't turn that down, but i was tired of watching the commercials in between. so what did i do? put the movie on of coarse. now that the movie's over, i was flipping through the channels again, and stopped on project runway. but after the last 5 minutes of the episode played, what was on Bravo? Tristian & Isolde of coarse. Apparently God decided to play a cruel joke on me this evening. I got off work at 5:3opm, and who was there to hang out with? Erin- at work, Maddie-camping, Zak- sicker than me, Roommates- gone for the weekend as usual, Barb & Jeff- at a wedding. who does that leave? oh yeah, me sitting on a couch by myself watching movies that make me even more sad about the state of my love life. haha. the worst part? i'm not changing the channel because i like the movie too much. see my problem?

things i could have/should have been doing tonight: laundry, dishes, general cleaning of the house, buying groceries, filling out more job applications, reading a book, crocheting, writing music, working out, etc.

a funny quote i just heard on tv: "how can your solemate fall in love with you when there are 6 million single women on facebook." haha

on a sad note, my sister Candice had a miscarriage yesterday. She was 10 weeks along. She's pretty upset, but relying on God.

on another note, i found this video on youtube, and i think it's wonderful. VOTE!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VhDRVKDcXQo

until next time friend...

please pray

For my sister Candice and her little baby inside of her. She's supposed to be 10 weeks along, and she started bleeding today. She went to the ER, and after hours of waiting, an ultrasound showed a 6 wk. old fetus with a weak heart beat around 34bpm (should be in high 70's). She doesn't know anything for sure right now, but she's really upset and worried. Unfortunately, she lives in West Virginia, so my family won't be able to comfort her in person as I'm in Georgia and the rest of the fam is in California. She and her husband Tommy have a 22month old (Caroline), and they were so excited to further expand their family. Please keep them in your prayers. Thanks.

And for more bad news to brighten your day, dear reader, I regret to inform you that I'm sick. boo. I've been trying to avoid admitting it for the past couple of days, but one day I just woke up congested. That's just the best. Sadly, I don't have insurance right now, due to the fact that I'm not a "full time student" for a semester. So that hinders my ability to just hop on over to the doc's and make sure it's not a sinus infection. Lovely. Looks like I'll keep downing sudafed, water, soup, tea, and zicam for now. Maybe you could throw my sinuses into your prayer list too. Hey, thanks.
fighting my way to sleep until next time...

Athens

So today is my friend Barbara's 21st birthday, and last night, her boyfriend Jeff planned a surprise party with all her friends at his house since she had her party already planned for this evening. I made the trip down to Athens last night even given the gas scare, and decorated Jeff's living room before everyone came over. The best part is Barb called while I was at Jeff's to make sure I was coming into town today in time for dinner and salsa dancing. Little did she know I was already in athens waiting to surprise her. So being the amazingly sneaky person that I am, I casually asked what her plans were for the evening, made up excuses for what I was doing and when I would arrive today, etc. Needless to say, everyone showed up, and we scared the crap out of her. haha. She had no idea. Being as I have been scared half to death in a similar fashion during the "Fare Weller by Helen Marie McBride" Party, I could totally relate to her horrified expression caught on camera. Needless to say, it was still just as funny. After that, we decorated her car, and went from room to room trying on dresses for this evening. We're going to dinner at this organic restaraunt, to the Wesley meeting, and then salsa dancing at "The Library" (a very cleverly named club downtown.) I'm pretty excited. :)
And Barbara loved the scarf I made her, so all is well.
My only worry for the week is making sure I have enough gas, and finding a way to get to the football game friday after work. I'm working thurs, fri, and sat nights... so i'll have a LITTLE more money in my pocket.
until next time...

pain throws your heart to the ground
love turns the whole thing around
I know it won't all go the way it should,
but I know the heart of life is good.

Sometimes song lyrics are so true it's ridiculous.

This isn't cut and dry, there is no great divide.
There's only you and I tonight.
Wish I could read your mind, so scared of the truths I'll find,
but I know I've reached the bottom line.

How do I know of your intentions, how do I make you see?
You see, I know your stories and all the songs you've played for me.
Oh I once was lost but, how did you find me and make me see?
See that I put you on a pedestal, won't you come back down to me?

You know I've been so downhearted, you know I've been so unsure.
For lack of a better word I need you more and more.
Hold me, love me, I need your warm embrace.
Don't waste another day.

i just had to get that off my chest.
anyway, I filmed a slasher film where I was the victim today. it was surprisingly fun.

my pentax 35mm camera.

So among the plethora of things my parents crammed into the trunk of my car was my dad's old 35mm Pentax camera that I used last semester in my Beginning Photography class. I'm pretty excited about it, because I casually mentioned it to him while he was packing the car, but I never thought he'd actually part with it. I mean, he hasn't used it in forever, and I've always been fascinated by it before I even knew how to use it. Well, to make a long story short, he gave it to me. I'm so excited. I have one roll of film left from my photog class, so I'm pretty excited about putting it to use. Even though I won't have a dark room to play around with developing the pictures, it'll still be fun to start using the camera again... especially because my digital camera broke before I left California. I'm definitely looking for a solid digital camera to put on my christmas list... got any ideas? Anywho, my scarf is coming along quite nicely, and I think I'm going to go for a quick walk up the redic. hill behind my house. The things I find to do when trying to conserve gas...
Oh, and Carly, I started reading Velvet Elvis last night... I'm really looking forward to it.
I also need to figure out what I'm sending all my girls at Vanguard. It has to be creative.
wish me luck until next time...

crocheting, late walks, and football games.

Last night before I went to bed, I decided to start crocheting again. At 5am... so now I'm working on a brown and blue scarf for my friend's birthday this coming week. I'm hoping I'll be able to make it down to see her, which is the plan, but the lack of gas in the area could be a big problem... so we'll see how that goes. I really enjoy crocheting. It's so consistent. You can just stare at it for so long, and make such intricate stitches, and I don't get bored at all. It's like reading a really good book. I don't know why, but I really enjoy intricate labor intensive things. haha. Anywho, currently I'm at my friend Madelyn's house on her computer getting nice and cozy after our hour walk. It was nice because it was at night, and we took her sweet dog. It's so nice to be around dogs again... they just have an ability to make your day that much brighter just by existing in it. I was going to watch the Georgia v. Alabama football game this evening... and hopefully with a certain someone, but plans changed, and now Madelyn and I are watching the Grey's episode we missed. I still have to catch up on Heroes last week... I'm not sure I can keep up with all these shows without the convenience of DVR or TiVo. alas...
I'm trying not to lose my head these days. My heart seems to be taking over.
until next time...

much ado about nothing

there is no gas...
anywhere.
boo.
i still have 3/4 of a tank, so we'll see how far that goes.
My friend Kayd is going to fix my radiator tomorrow afternoon, so that will be good. Apparently Sport needs a little TLC. Tomorrow evening, I'm dog sitting at Erin's house this weekend while they're out of town, and next week I'm going to Athens for Barb's bday. I'm pretty excited about being busy, but it's a little scary not having lots of money and lots of gas.
I'm deliriously tired... I'm running on three hours of sleep, and I had a very busy day.

this is the song you need to sing to me:

No i'm not the man i used to be lately
see you met me at an interesting time
if my past is any sign of your future
you should be warned before i let you inside

hold on to whatever you find baby
hold on to whatever will get you through
hold on to whatever you find baby
i don't trust myself with loving you

i will beg my way into your garden
i will break my way out when it rains
just to get back to the place where i started
so i can watch you back all over again

hold on to whatever you find baby
hold on to whatever will get you through
hold on to whatever you find baby
i don't trust myself with loving you

John Mayer

Tommy Emmanuel and Anthony Snape

Look them up.
Mom and Dad went to their concert (Anthony opened for Tommy) night before last, and they both agreed it was the best and most entertaining concert they'd ever been to. I looked them up on youtube, and was amazed by Tommy's guitar playing. Apparently he was one of the first (if not the first) guitar players to play percussion rhythms on the guitar. He also has probably the most full and rich tone I've ever heard a guitar produce. Simply incredible. Anthony Snape is an up and comer from Australia, who's just starting to get recognized in the U.S. His guitar skills don't match up to Tommy's (I'm sure not many do), but he has a pretty unbelievable voice. I was pretty blown away. Anyway, look them up, be amazed, and enjoy.

P.s. Erin came home from visiting family in Kansas today, and I picked her up from the airport. It's so good having her back... and having a car. I think this is going to be a good week. Much to do, for certain, but that's how I roll.
until next time.

"i'm not that dirty..."

so I have a great story to tell.
Background: I finally got Sport this morning! I'm so excited.
Plot: My friend Kayd, a mechanic, came with me to get my car, and after following me back to the house, he was driving me back to the car I'm borrowing for the weekend. My mom called to see how everything went, and she said, "How does Sport look?", and I said, "Well, he's really dirty right now, but other than that he's fine."... at that moment, I noticed Kayd self consciously looking around at his clothes, arms, etc. and then he utters the best line ever... "Hey, I'm not that dirty yet."
hahahahaha
I almost peed my pants. He obviously had no idea that I refer to my car as a he, or that he even has a name. I quickly corrected him, and tried not to laugh too much. needless to say, he was quite embarrased. bahaha.

so in other news, I woke up at 6:30am this morning... which is always bad... and dropped the girls off at school. then i had to get their grandmother ready for the day and take her to the senior center. picked up sport, shuttled cars, took a nap, checked on g-ma, picked up girls, took to dance (30 minute drive back and forth twice), got dinner (twice), helped girls with homework, watched a movie, sent girls to bed, and now i'm having to spend another night with them because their parents won't get back until about 2am. brilliant.

tomorrow I'll see if my blood has enough iron in it to donate, unpack my fully stuffed trunk, and then pick erin up from the airport. i'm pretty excited. it's wierd going from being completely deserted and trapped in my home, to missing being there and seeing my roommates. i've been non stop all weekend!

but i'm racking up a little dough, so what can i say.... except,
until next time.

baby hats and breaking dawn

Today, I had a plan. I was going to wake up early so I could get laundry done, do dishes, etc before I had to be picked up to babysit for a couple of days. Of coarse I woke up 20 minutes before I was supposed to be picked up instead... so I threw a bag of things together, washed up, and didn't even have time to eat breakfast. Thankfully the family I'm sitting for was making french toast for lunch, so it all worked out. After the family left, I crochet'd two little newborn baby hats for my sister's baby to be. Since she hasn't even had her first ultrasound yet, I thought I'd be safe and make a brown and pink one, and a blue and brown one... even though we're all hoping for a little Owen Thomas Hamilton. Cute name right? (I'm responsible for the Owen, which I'm quite proud of). I also got a little bit if Breaking Dawn time in again... my goal is to have it finished before I pick Erin up at the airport Tuesday. My other goal is to have my freaking car before then... yep. It's still not here. I'm about to kill those guys. Other than making dinner, it was a pretty slow day. We watched two movies, crochet'd, and had fun. Tomorrow however is going to be interesting... mostly because in no way am I a morning person. I have wake the girls up at 6:30am, have them to school by 8am, give their grandma her meds and take her to the senior center by 9am, pick the girls up by 3pm, take rachel to dance at 4, go back and get charlotte for dance at 7, but drop her off 30 min early so i can pick rachel up 30 minutes late, feed them, help with homework, etc. Should be interesting...
wish me luck, until next time.

grocery list: waterproof mascara

note to self: never watch Steel Magnolias for the first time while you're alone in your house and you forgot you're wearing mascara. such a bad combination. i realize now why my eyes were stinging so badly during my sob-fest... they had chemicals in them (aka mascara). i'm such a genius. needless to say, i had a good cry, loved the movie, and fixed a messed up candle (slash played with the wax.)

sport update: the truck carrying sport was stuck in mississippi with engine trouble, but was supposed to be back on the road by noon today. according to the guy yesterday, the driver should be in georgia by now, and should be calling me very early in the morning to plan a time to meet up. all i have to say is, if i don't have my car by tomorrow, i'm going to have to bust a cap in the first person i deem responsible.

weekend update: (not snl style)
i woke up today and got ready with the sole purpose of babysitting all day. that's such a bad feeling. waking up knowing you're going to spend the rest of your day with a sassy 8 year old. well, that's what i did. we watched a disney movie, disney chanel tv shows, i watched her jump on the trampoline, made dinner, and then watched "camp rock" with her. (as to be expected, she's obsessed with the jobros and has seen them in concert). the highlight of the day was having some quality breaking dawn re-reading time. oh, and i got paid basically $5 an hr... such a jip. unfortunately it's a family friend. so what are you going to do.
the rest of my weekend and monday will be spent babysitting another family friend's children while they take their older child to visit the Auburn campus. i'm sure i'll be underpaid again, but at least i'll have a car to drive around. tuesday i'll be picking up erin from the airport. i can't wait for her to come home. i've been so bored all week!

last thing: all night, i've been hearing a small plastic sounding "clink clink" from the direction of my roommate emily's room. it's been freaking me out secretly, because i'm the only one here. i played scenarios through my mind (robber, emily who secretly came back, etc), and suddenly i remembered that she has a very old hamster in a tank against the wall. i'm sure that's what is causing the sound, but emily's door is shut, and i'm too much of a chicken to open it... i mean, what if it is a robber?

until next time...

ode to sport

My dearest sport I miss you so
How many miles more must you go?
Arriving safely in my arms
You do not come with car alarms.

You've traveled far, you've traveled wide
Pretty soon, in you I'll ride.
The stupid car man bringing you
Is causing me to feel so blue.

It's been two months since our last embrace
My heart's had a hole with a car sized place.
I'll see you soon, I know for sure
I'll hug and kiss your tan car door.

tell me...

what you want me to think.
you could lead me to water,
you can make me drink.
I trust you if you say it's good.
You wouldn't hurt me
and I don't think you could.
-Chris Thile

I love feeling giddy. It's one of the truest and most raw emotions. I love it when you can hear the smile in my voice, and I love it when thinking of you causes said reactions.
You make my head spin.
and I wouldn't have it any other way.

photoshop fun

so here are a few pictures I played around with for the majority of my day today. I'm pretty pleased with how they turned out, especially considering this was my first time really editing photos that weren't from a 35mm camera in a dark room. :)

I'm expecting...

No, not a baby silly. My car Sport should be gracing the east coast with his presence hopefully by tomorrow afternoon. I am desperately awaiting his arrival, as he has been my closest companion and most trusted male confidant for the past 4 years. He will be arriving with a newly patched front left tire, which I'm quite certain he's very thrilled about, and a trunk-o-stuff for me to distribute throughout my lovely abode. Sadly, he will be "sporting" a california tag that expires this month... so that could be potentially problematic, but other than that, he and I will both be generally overjoyed to see eachother again. My only hope is that the delivery man decides to come before 2:30 or after 7pm, as I will be working between those hours. If Sport hasn't arrived before I have to work, I'll most likely call my boss and tell them I can't come just so I'll be prepared to meet Sport at the drivers earliest convenience. Needless to say, I'm quite excited. :)

In other news, I rented "Smart People" last night and watched it today at mi casa. Unfortunately I was quite dissapointed with the movie all together. It wasn't able to capture or hold my attention in any sense of the word, but I felt better that I only paid $1 to watch it via "Red Box Movies" at WalMart (the greatest invention in movie rental history). The only catch is that you have to return the movie by 9pm the following day or you will be charged for another day's rental... that's where they getcha. So my friend Madelyn took me to a bible study tonight, and afterwards I requested to stop by W.M. to return said boring film. Much to my dismay, by the time we reached the store, it was already 9:20, so I was charged $2 whole dollars to watch one of my least favorite films of all time.

Needless to say, if it weren't for the laughter I shared with my roommates after being taken home, this day would have been a total bust. haha.

Until next time...

p.s.

One of the things going on at Chik-fil-A was face painting. Charlotte, one of the girls I was watching, got a tear drop painted under her right eye... it was her idea, but I encouraged her. haha. oops.

In the beginning...

There was a blog.
haha.
So, I finally gave in and made my own blog. I'm looking forward to sharing my thoughts, ideas, jokes, and ramblings with any who care to listen.
So, here goes nothing.

Today was almost as uneventful as yesterday. You never realize how important a mode of transportation is until you don't have one. I thought my car would be here much sooner, and now it seems it will be conflicting with my work schedule. I'm paying $1050 dollars to have my car shipped to Georgia from California, and it was supposed to be here by tomorrow afternoon. But as most things in life go, it won't be here until thursday or friday... which just happens to be the two days I'm working at Steamers (the cute coffee shop I got hired at).
So now, not only do I have to wait longer to get my car, I have to possibly call off work the first week I'm working to make sure I'm available to pick up my car at "the driver's convenience." What about my convenience? haha.

So because of all this, and the fact that my best friend (and mode of transportation) left for Kansas for a week, I'm basically a prisoner of my own home; and if you know me at all, you know I like to keep busy and keep doing things.

Anyway, the one thing I was able to do today was get picked up by my friends mom and taken to Chik-fil-A to watch her two kids play and eat. And this weekend I'll actually be babysitting Saturday, Sunday, and Monday... so hopefully these are the last few days of my imprisonment.

Until next time...